good piece. external validation counts. but in my view, the only way to get there, with both feet planted on the ground, is by way of internal validation. As you say, fate has given us bounds. we can push against them and that's fine, but to be the best we can be with what nature gave us is a wise and fruitful path. You're still young. Push on. at the end, it will be just you. find that peace. carry it with you. cherish it. dare to trust it.